under the bridge

hello people! how goes it? hope it goes.. whatever that is. have you tried vanilla pepsi? i have and i'll say that it's slightly better than vanila coke (personal preferance). i got hooked on vanila coke earlier thanks to monsiuer vincent vega (john travolta) in that one scene where ordered vanilla coke.. that was when he took the ever-hot mia wallace (uma thurman), that's mrs. wallace to you unknowing stranger, his boss' wife, out to dinner. coolness personified. anyways, i'm not gonna start discussing about the academy awards, since, well urm, i didn't watch it. i mean what's the academy awards without LoTR, right? come on, i'm sure you can agree with me on this one at least. plus i haven't seen either the aviator and million dollar baby yet. dunno when i'm gonna ever watch these two. i've just ordered two cool-looking korean movies from the web. one's called fighter in the wind, and the second one's called sword in the moon. both, if i'm not mistaken and you don't wanna quote me on this, are based of historical events. nonetheless and being the lazy bum that i am and being true to form, i'm not going into more details-lah, but both involves martial arts thingy. me like, so that's important. yeah, it's true that i haven't seen either yet but am damn sure that they will be awesome and inspiring... and they cost me 40 bucks so they better be good lor! oh, on another note, my chicken curry was a big hit! yeay! see, i was told that there will be some guests to dinner last night, but what i wasn't informed about was who those guests were. shockingly one of them is a fine cook by our malaysian standard here in colorado. but to make this short and simple and sparing all the unnecessary fanfare, i passed with flying colors. phew! and i would like to take this opportunity to wish my dear sister a happy birthday:) may this coming of age be a beginning of life filled with fond memories, beautiful acquintances, and dreams fulfilled. and that 'hadiah' i deposited into yer account's nice too huh?!:)

take me out

hola! how are you doing today? for most part of the world, it's already monday morning (yeah could feel yer pain my friends), but it's still sunday afternoon here in colorado. and again, it's been a beautiful sunday here. the sun's out and a little breezy.. just perfect, a slice of heaven on earth. i got a request today for chicken curry. believe or not, i got a fan *heart-warming* hehe, thanks for the vote of confidence roomie! yep, the request came from my room-mate/landlord. so go figure, damn if i do, damn if i don't. to tell you the truth, i think i'm a little rusty in the kitchen (meaning, i haven't cooked in awhile), but hey, one thing for sure, nobody's gonna complain. if there are complaints, you think i care? haha!! so, hope your monday's been kind so far and for the rest of the day. smile a little bit eh!

pablo honey

i feel freakin lousy today. tired and stomach-achy and lousy and sad and bitter... i guess i'm gonna dwell on this sick feeling for another night, sleep on it, some people might say. just don't feel like doing anything right now. the good news is it's friday evening already and i don't have to be at work on the weekend (yeay). it's somewhat amazing how a single event could dictate one's mood. the psychology of it.. the understanding of the psyche or soul of human must be very interesting. but i'll leave that to the experts. i don't think a good, warm cup of chai would even do me any good right now. you know what's more amazing? the fact that i could put these all in writing while trying to be smart about it *sigh* i think i'm being hard on myself, or just plainly being too serious about it.. now, do i have to pick my poison then?

patience

i'm very excited to tell you that i've finally got the bandwidth (those are time and money) to mod my satria (btw, it's a pearl-white, 2000, 1300cc model). yep, can't believe the time's now. i actually have this 'plan' in last year's resolution list.. it shows just how many had been achieved/fulfilled lah (erk, not too many)! LoL! i've been in a very determined mood since the turn of the new year (i know it's been almost a quarter since) that i feel compelled to add to his year's list (of one). i'm not gonna reveal 'that one' resolution just yet, but am damn, freakin sure that i'd nailed this other one. my 'racing team' is currently comprised of myself (ceo), wadin (one of my best buddies, chief engineer), iq (bro., engineering specialist), and kda (sis., cfo, etc. etc.). i think i'd call the team 'crazycorpse racing'. after much deliberation with the crew, we kinda came to an agreement that we'd proceed with 'project numero uno' in three stages.

Stage 1: cosmetics/accessories (this sounds weird pulak). this would include new paint job (kenari's red.. it's blazing! me like hehe), new doors with power windows, body-kits (new front/back bumpers, side-skirting), tinted windshields, adjustable side mirrors, Recaro seats, preferably momo steering wheel and short-shifter gear stick

Stage 2: sports suspensions/struts, five-spoke 15" alloy rims, front/back stabilizers, brand new audio system

Stage 3: engine (primary: 1.8 gsr turbocharged; secondary: 1.6 mivec), new exhaust system

in truth, i prefer to start on the project in reverse order, but was convinced that it won't buy me anything. and since this would be my first mod project, i don't think i know half of the items that i just listed above (pathetic hihi). i'd probably sounded less 'stoopid' if i have some tuner magazines with me right now and bs you like no-one's business, but that won't be civil now, will it? hmm i guess i'd better start some reading, not because i could sound more, er, academic, but at least i know what i'm paying for ler. oh btw, i won't even be driving the car till i go home again! remember, the car's in kl with my sis/bro/best friend (or whoever needs it at the moment) and i'm in the states. but these are the things that i do for my loved ones... *take note of big bro's sacrifice! plus i'm more than happy driving my wrx right now *wink* till then, take care and stay safe.

stop whispering

it's sunday here in colorado.. and a particularly gorgeous day! makes me wanna get up and do something useful. i actually did. i woke up early since i slept early last night. couldn't get through to mia.. stoopid phone line (i use a calling card to call malaysia.. maybe it's time to change card lor). i'm gonna try call her again tomorrow. then i went back to sleep.. or at least i tried, but couldn't. felt nauseous a bit afterwards. and i actually hit the gym this AM. wah! can't believe i'm this motivated! if only i'd sustain this kind of drive in my life, i could be better off now *sigh* the good news is, people, it's never too late to change your lifestyle.. all it takes is a little nudge and a bit of a change in mentality. so, good luck eh!

oh, i guess i haven't told you what i have in mind in the last few weeks (other than sex and all those good stuff.. hehe). i've always been getting Q's about how i'm getting through life abroad, away from all things, i.e. activities, and all the people that i'm familiar with. i'm writing this based on my own experiences of course (macam disclaimer-lah nie), so you can read on, digest, and take or heed this in whichever way you think is fit. okeh now, it takes a heck of an effort to even think about moving abroad. i have to admit that the lure of working/living abroad has always been an attractive proposition since as far back as i can remember (ah, such romantic).

when i was younger (i still am young *wink*), me dad came to the states for his masters degree in michigan. he brought the whole family along.. that's me mom, and all five of their children. it was quite an experience for me i must say.. the changing of the seasons, the soccer sessions where i was the smallest kid on the team, the elementary school that i attended with my kid sister, the road trip to chicago, the big-ass wagon that my dad drove, the halloween parties, and, oh, k-mart! haha.. lotsa memories! then many years later, i got accepted into a college in the states (nothing beats hardwork), and that was when i realized that a lot of things are 'do-able' in the states, including me getting a fairly decent job, as a professional some more! after graduation, two months and an interview later, and oh, i was going through a bad breakup, i gave up. i was already offered a position in a US-based multinational company in perai but that wasn't the same. i went home and started working, no, grinding, at the said company's factory for nearly two years. then an oppotunity presented itself...

the factory was shut-down due to economical reasons. i updated my resume and sent it over to some people that i've worked with in the company's r&d center in colorado. i was offered a position in a coupla weeks. i accepted the offer without any hesitation. alas my dreams are coming through. in retrospect, the decision i made was due to a lot of reasons. for one, it's a professional decision. i was offered an opportunity to further enhance my career in an r&d environment of a 40k-employee multinational company that's listed on nyse, now that's huge! when you surround yourself with smart people, you'll feel smarter too. then, the pay's good. colorado is a bit pricey, but it all depends on your lifestyle more-or-less. and i'm not gonna start talking about what you should do with your money and life.. you wanna live your life to the fullest, and you also wanna have something to fall back onto too. balance it out. okeh, moving along.

another reason was personal. it hit me rather more profoundly than i expected. breaking up is a hard thing to do especially when you know, or feel, that you two are still madly and deeply in love with each other. but i also realized that i can't force the issue. there was a pitch-black, blurry period in both of our lives that had defined our livelihood since then. too sad of an event. but we've moved on since then. and a way for me to 'move on' was literally to move. please understand that i wasn't running away from it. we've already made up our minds and, at least to me, it would be easier too. so, that was that. i'm working on a new 'chapter' in my life. she's the one.. always so uptight and serious. hmm i have to make her smile more.

anyways it's all relative really. we can't really understand the motivation(s) of other people's action. but at least try to understand ours. about all those paths that we've taken and how are we living with those life decisions. live and learn. i'll write more about my experiences of living abroad in future posts. ask if you want to know any specifics.. i'll gladly share them with you (if not, i'll just bs you ler hehe). oh, btw, i've been thinking about taking aikido lessons, swimming lessons, tennis lessons, and buying a bike (road or mountain? arghh..). think only, no actions yet! i'll keep you posted though. till the next time, maybe tomorrow, hope you're happy and living your life as you've always wanted to. keep in mind that even when some people are more filthy rich than the others, they might not be as happy as you are. take care.. ciao:)

que sera sera

hey pretty..;) hope the day's been kind to you. it's pretty late and i'm still stuck here at work. i do have a life, you know! alright, look at it this way.. i'm working to 'finance' my life. haa, how does that sound? i think it's alright. i was gonna write about how pissed off i am today (especially after reading how much coverage tragic stories get these days.. anything from a guy who got assassinated to a cat that climbed up a tree and couldn't come down - depending on the degree of tragic-ness), but i'm simply not pissed off at anything or anyone today. the day's been hectic, yes, but i had no situation that warrants such act of anger and utter turmoil. i guess i'm blessed with such patience (cewah). i wish i could get pissed off somedays. it'll probably get my adrenaline rushing.. sending shockwaves into my life's senses again. i believe i've never had to scream nonsense and/or obscenity at anyone my whole life yet. or even getting embroiled in a heated discussion that would justify my landing an uppercut to the unfortunate party. that'll be cool, perhaps. i'm just not the confrontational-type i guess... *sigh*

watched 'the motorcycle diaries' last night. stayed up till almost 1am, inspite the voices in my head telling me to quit it and go to bed. but it was worth staying up for. to those who's probably wondering about the movie, it's about a road trip that good buddies, ernesto, a medic student, and granado, a scientist, took from buenos aries, argentina to caracas, venezuela. it was the 1950's and the backdrop was the beautiful country side of latin america (argentina, chile, peru, colombia, and venezuela). it's basically the early life and times and the events that shaped ernesto to become such a prominent revolutionary figure in cuba (and a couple of other countries that i couldn't recall) that was che guevara. interesting accounts of a real-life journey into the depth of social, political, and economical imbalances through those regions. plus, senor gael garcia bernal (of the 'y tu mama tambien' fame and who played ernesto) looks strikingly and freakishly similar to my kid brother at home! haha!! don't know that i have such latino machismo in me hehe..

okeh-lah.. tired now. gonna hit the gym again tonight. the goal is to have a believeable-looking six-pack by end of march! yep, jangan tak percaya pulak. aiks.. you, back there, stop laughing k! at press time, i still have one pack. and through my sheer unmatched determination, i'll get there.. please God help me, amin. do take care ya!

bookstore girl

hello people! how goes it? hope it goes.. in whatever that is that you're doing. i was at waldenbooks just now, browsing through the manga section. i think i've been through that particular section (and the one at borders) countless times already. haven't gotten bored of them yet. anyways, i frequent the place (waldenbooks) for three solid reasons.. 1) manga, 2) can read books/magazines for free, and 3) check out the bookstore girl. she's super-cute. i haven't seen her for awhile until tonight. apparently she's busy with school, working at her Bachelor's degree and her Master's degree in may. wah! these smart people.. i'm telling you! anyways, i've always been interested in the eccentricities in women. to me, these 'imperfections' are what complete a woman. tell me whether you agree with this or not k! take care and have a nice day:) ciao!

prairie dogs

as the day comes to an end, i sat here wondering what would be a good way of saying goodbye. as you would already know, i don't have a clue to where i'm going with that first sentence.. just something i thought of when i logged earlier. it snowed for a bit this morning. don't know exactly when the heavens opened up, i was snuggly rather uncomfortably in bed with a murderous, throbbing headache, but it sure was a scenery. could see through my groggy eyes a white blanket of fresh, soft snow as far as the mountains would allow me to see. kinda made me wonder why i have to get up and go to work today? ah, i know now! it struck me so suddenly that i had to laugh at my selfish ignorance. the reason being so straightforward to comprehend that i misjudged entirely the simplicity of the matter.. my room-mate needs a ride to work, his transportation, a mean 1999 mitsubishi eclipse gst covertible, is somewhat 'out of commission' in this kind of weather. so, with that in mind and a hope that he won't increase my rent, i dragged my self literally out from the warm and cozy habitat, i.e. my bed, into the shower. the rest, some would say, is history. it's been another long day. the boss' out for the week. had japanese for lunch (at sakura). and about ready to go home. think i'd stop by borders and see whether they have 'the motocycle diaries' dvd in stock, heard it's an awesome movie about the early years of che guevara. gael gacia bernal played the young che guevara and from the reviews, gave a good account of himself. had watched ' y tu mama tambien' a coupla years back and was surprisingly and pleasantly impressed with the production. highly recommended! okeh-kokeh.. do take care of yourself, and have a brilliant day:)

rocky mountain oysters

hola! hope everybody's doing fine and enjoying life as it should be enjoyed. i'm in a good mood again today. we had a very good result last in westminster.. we won 7-5, and if the scoreline suggests a close game, then it was. we should've won more comfortably but to their credit, they came out fighting, kudos lads! and to our credit, we came out fighting as well. that showed character. tonight's a big night as well for my team in boulder. we have to win to harbour any hopes of finishing better then fourth. let you know tomorrow.

valentines day been rather quiet. well it's always been this way. i never celebrate it. i sent a bouquet of roses to mia last sunday and she loved it. i'm glad she does.. warms my heart knowing that at least i've done something right. anyways, i celebrate my love and care to those i love everyday. i don't need a special day 'to remind' me of it. it nevertheless is for a really noble cause.. you want to celebrate love in the most romantic of ways, and more importantly let it be meaningful. see how 'mat bunga' i can get? but i'm only 'one' to someone dear in my heart.. .

i drove to boulder for lunch today via the country road.. nice weather and beautiful view. passed by a few ranches that offer horse riding/equestrian lessons. pretty sure she'd love this place.. best-nye2. i might try riding a horse too, so i won't look too awkward then (i look awkward enough standing still haha!!). *note to self: go check out one of these places.

a special shout-out to cap-G and Utter Rubbish.. you gals are the best! cap-G, so how was the vacation-lah? i saw your blog this AM but haven't had the chance to read through it yet.. nie pun curi2 enter me blog. okeh.. take care.

paranoid.android

just finished reading the latest manga of initial-D (volume 16) and samurai deeper kyo (volume 11). both are fantastic reads! i don't wanna spend the next 1/2 hour or so writing about them. go get them yourselves, ok! well, if there's a request for a lo-down of 'em, let me know and i'll see what i can do (i'm being lazy again).

i'm supposed to be off at some friends' chinese new year party but i figure i'll put something in before leaving here. as it always is, we would come up with 'reasons' to have our small get-togethers every now and then. with 'we' i mean malaysians here in longmont. and the same 'reasons' apply to the group here in colorado in general (longmont, boulder, denver, fort collins, greeley, golden, and colorado springs). and they always turn out to be very fun.. lotsa food, malaysian delicacies of course, and a chance to catch up with friends.

i wrote a very long email yesterday to my gurl. to date, that was the longest email that i've ever written, period. felt like writing yesterday, hence no entry into the blog-lah. normally would quickly run out of ideas after the third sentence. i don't think i could ever write her a beautiful love letter with my short-attention span and all. then again, a beautiful love letter wouldn't necessarily be long, right? it's a matter of how sincere and well the letter would be constructed.. no, crafted ('constructed' remind me of composition class too much hehe). i'll definitely try writing one one of these days. hmmm what would our grandkids think of me, us, then? yep, your grandpa's a 'mat bunga' (i don't know how to translate this to english), but only with your grandma.. :)

it seems like i'll be getting a new laptop for work.. yeay! finally... i've been trying to get one for quite sometime now (kinda don't want to think about how much my value to the company is worth.. haha), and i'm getting a Dell. cool. can't wait... work's been picking up. i'm really hoping to go to singapore again for this new product. winter in colorado this year has been rather mild but i do miss that unmistakeable warm and humid southeast asia air.. and the food.. and the people (girls), etc. etc. gotta see my gurl:) ciao, baby!

somewhat redundant

nie feng

my left knee's hurting. i don't remember getting whacked there during any of my football matches. definitely not a sign of old age! haha!! turning 29 this may, but till that day comes, i'm still 28. to some extent there's a certain feel to reaching 30.. as someone's getting close to it would attest.. (err maybe it's just me?!). there are days, i feel no qualm at all towards the notion, cool jer.. but some other days, i'd feel rather depressed. why the mixed feelings? haven't really figured that out yet. i have a little over a year to find the answer(s). heck it would probably be no biggie at all when that time comes.

some days i feel like i haven't actually achieved anything of note, but there are days when i feel i'm on top of the world! confusing. i'm trying to maintain my emotions as such that i'd be satisfied with what i have.. be grateful, of course. but at the end of it, there will always be a fraction of lingering thoughts urging me to think about the what-ifs.. damn the indecisions. well, i guess, we have to look at things from every angle, cover your bases more-or-less. hmmm i could blabber on and on about this and still couldn't find the solution. so, when i do, hopefully i won't confuse you as much.

oh ya.. i'm a dragon! not exactly sure about the mysticism of all this, but my impression of it is dragons are da bomb! hah, eat hearts out roosters!! a chinese friend at work told me that this would be a terrific year for the dragons. obviously i don't believe in all this but couldn't help riding the wave of opportunism here hehe.. insyaAllah. didn't set out a whole list of new year resolutions like i did last year.. just one.. and she's a keeper. be safe, mia:)

ps: off to watch 'sideways'

heartbeat

makan asap ler.. maroon, just like someone likes it

hello people! (notice how i'm addressing the audience in plural sense.. cewah! macam ramai sangat follow nonsense nih hehe! special thanks to Utter Rubbish anyways.. *note: still owe her some money) hope everybody's doing well. yours truly, in particular, is in an uncompromisingly, good mood.. why you ask? no particular reason. just feeling good, i guess. my youngest sister's flying off to the uk this coming monday. the second among us siblings having the chance to study overseas (after moi of course!). this is what we call 'rezeki' (err.. 'good fortune', methinks). come to think about it, i'm the least smart among the crew. and i have to work hard all my life to get what i want. in a sense, it gives me a somewhat different view of approaching things. but not everything i've worked for came to fruitation though.. partly, takde rezeki, hard luck, lazy, etc. etc. but i'm not regretting all that. life's to short to dwell on past failures. the way i see it, we make decisions regarding our lives every day.. right or wrong, the important thing is to learn and live with the consequences of those decisions. that, in itself, is already a life's lesson. tell me what you think. now, after tasting life for nearly 29 years, i don't think us adik-beradik's been doing too shabby for ourselves... what's left is a small matter of who's getting married first, what a proposition! haha!!

one factor that's affecting my incredibly good mood is the fact the our indoor soccer team in boulder won last night (damn them organizers for having us play late again!). an awesome result considering that we lost the last two games rather meekly. the quality's there.. it's just a matter of stringing together a few decent passes and scoring goals. bravo lads! oh, btw, we re-named the team to 'beer guts' (?!).. and this happened when i was away in beautiful singapore. lads, i don't drink.. get a clue, i always drink those bloody redbull at the bar, even after late night games. ah well.. it's all good:)

i was wanting to write about some people wearing emotions on the sleeve, but couldn't think of a good story. just got to know about my ex-girlfriend getting involved in a car accident in kl yesterday.. hit-and-run in broad daylight, somewhere around jalan sultan ismail, getting rear-ended by an SUV. my heart skipped for a fraction of a second upon hearing the news. alhamdulillah though, she's fine. always say that she's strong and tough, alot more stronger than she herself would know. and i wasn't kidding when i told her sister that i'd take the first flight home if it was any serious. please stay safe sweetness...

cold night

samurai meow

okeh people.. i got a confession to make.. i'm dead lazy! is it too obvious?! hope not. sure would like to think that i'm not one of 'em lazy bums, but somewhere in my heart i know i am. it's been in my nature for quite some time now come to think about it, but of course i wouldn't know because i'm perhaps too lazy to entertain that notion. alrighty.. hopefully i can get back to writing this once a day.. ok, let's see how i fare this week.. (hehe.. won't bet on myself right now!)

anyways, i had a full weekend, for a change. i've had saturdays doing absolutely nothing.. nada. but last saturday, after some prompting from my room-mate/landlord, i agreed to go snowboarding.. yeay. we went to copper mountain.. just because we have fourpasses to it. it still is a pretty winter resort, don't get me wrong pulak, and quite accessible too. our friend ade from boulder joined us on the trip. left home quite late, picked up ade, then off we went. stopped by whatchacallit place to rent a coupla snowboards, stopped again for breakfast.. again, and finally got to copper around 11am-ish. to my astonishment, there were plenty of late crews who just got in as well.. must be lazy bums like moi! hehe!! hit the slopes after a 'briefing' session by Room-mate with ade, who never tried snowboarding before. i must say.. kudos to both teacher and student! ade picked it up rather quickly.. a natural-lah! to me, the most dreaded part of the entire experience is getting off the ski-lift. the lift operator must've stopped the lift everytime i get off, yep, after stumbling like nobody's business and sheepishly smiling (malu lah tu..). all in all, a good day of fun. oh btw, i went up the slopes once.. and down once, then spent the rest of the time enjoying the view and the people while waiting for Room-mate to be done with his runs. ade? she's chilling too.. said that her bums hurt.. yeah alasan jugak tu:)

sunday.. lunch at rick&nadiah's in denver. very nice and cozy place they got. there were about 40 people who showed up.. mostly malays in colorado, and MBAs (that's malaysian-by-association.. err non-malaysians associated to malaysians.. something like that). it was suppose to be a superbowl luncheon thingy-lah. someone probably forgot to mention to the host that the superbowl actually started at 4:30pm.. but you won't see complaining. for free food and good company? i'd drive 40miles! met some new people especially students from CSM in golden (weird but smart kids!) and a small family who just moved to colorado springs (an engineer with intel and on a training trip to the states.. another smart guy). it's all good..

been kinda sick for the past few days. i think i got high fever, but it's been awhile since i last got sick, perhaps i'd lost the feeling of how being sick should be. my gurl's not feeling too well. she admitted that she hasn't been eating right, i.e. not consuming enough meat and what-not. perhaps she miss me so much that she 'makan tak kenyang'.. well, i miss her terribly too but makan time is makan time! no compromise there. i have to say that i do lose me appetite every once in awhile when my heart aches for her.. it's not a good feeling to have. but some people might say that that's love. love could and would make you act strangely at times.. but what i won't do for love. i salute those people in love..:) to my gurl.. do get well. stay safe.. and take care, because i care.

on another note.. what do you think of moi, the biker?! watch this space..hehe!! hats off to Utter Rubbish and cap-G, thanks for being a friend:) may the force be with you... arghh.

polar bottle - insulated sport bottle

... why the topic? it's my water bottle, so i thought it's cool. oh btw, MANCHESTER UNITED rules!! they beat the arrogant arse (arsenal) so comprehensively that, surprised, surprised, monseiur wenger even conceded that his team's out of the title race. all well then.. but it's still chelsea's to lose. we'll see. on the home front, there's somewhat a conflict brewing.. one team-mate wants another team-mate off the team.. it's more of a personal thing-lah, hope they'll resolve whatever's conflicting and get on with the season.

i was gonna post a picture of junjihyun.. sexy, pretty korean actress, of the 'my sassy girl' film.. but couldn't find it for some reason, weird. anyways, will continue to look for it and post it later, sometime. work's been pretty hectic as i mentioned in a few posts before. so, the only time i have for blogging is after work, like now. i'd normally have plenty to say during the day, but couldn't conjure up something smart at the end of the day. okeh-lah.. it's hard work trying to be creative and look smart when you're actually not all that.

need a haircut.. but, wait, my hairstylist would be out tomorrow, so i'm gonna try set up an appointment for thursday. got a CNY celebration at CU in boulder this saturday night.. that'll be fun. then BBQ in denver on sunday.. hehe superbowl sunday. not very much into american football, but setakat nak bs around tu can-lah. hope the patriots win. they're perhaps the most underrated superbowl champions ever, so with the win, people would probably recognized them as it should. how come the saints sux all the time?!

currently brushing up on my circuit theory.. yupp, electric circuit. it's not that my job requires it, well not much, but it's more the pride of being an electrical engineer. i'm very much out of touch with EE's fundamentals that i feel embarassed to admit i'm one.. *sigh* can't even bs my way around sometimes haha!! funny jugak.. so, now, when someone asks about a certain capacitance circuitry, at least i won't be gasping in awe and amazement of how smart that sounds. take care!