hunting bears

(10/29) sometimes i have too much to say (and said too much). other times, i don't. most of the times really. like now. i was supposed to publish this entry yesterday, but the line crapped out on me. kinda hoping i'd thought of something utterly brilliant to write this morning to add on to the minimal writing i did yesterday but to no avail-lah. there's a lot of aspects in my life that i want to improve. hmm and before i start ranting and raving about how much 'goodness' i can introduce to the world, i might want to reconsider it. why? because you're probably tired of reading these things being discussed across the cyberworld already. *still nothing brilliant to talk about..

(10/28) hola! i want to apologise for not writing these last few days. i know you're eager to hear what i've been doing this past week, but it never happened. eid was a blast! took the day off and drove down to denver for the eid prayer at the denver tech center. met up with a few malay families there and we went on a raya road trip soon after. five houses in all on monday.. felt like celebrating eid at home! later that day, the longmont gang had an eid party too. and, oh, my satay was a hit! the best in colorado won't you think so? :)

hundred

i've written an entry a couple of days ago with this same title. it never got published due a technical difficulty with the internet line. ah well.. maybe i should move on. alrighty then.

aidul fitri is a few days out. i can't feel any excitement though. it will be 'just another day'. not sure that's good or bad. the one thing that would make me feel it's hari raya is when i hear the takbir. don't care much about those raya songs. or raya cookies. trust me.

i'll be making satay (insyaAllah). don't know how they'll turn out, but they'll be the best satay in colorado by far (perasan). so, please stop by. everybody's invited :)

to those making trips back home, stay safe ok! God bless. selamat hari raya!!

vienna

i can't believe how time flies when you're having fun! it's not like i'm having too much fun here though. tired from sleep (self) deprivation. i'm beginning to think that with setting up this pc at home, it has became more of a health deterrent than anything else beneficial. other than being able to update this blog more frequently, i can't think of of anything else that would've kept me up late at night. i mean i don't surf the internet as much (porno sites are definite no-no, urm..) nor have i gotten less suck at chess (and/or 'age of empire'). so why did i get this pc in the first place?

don't panic

i just purchased two cd's with 25% discount, for claiming that i'm a tennis instructor. border's is currently having an 'educators' sales' (sorta kinda) that gives all sorts of 'educators' imaginable, ie grade school teachers, dance/yoga/taebo instructors, over-rated self-improvement gurus, and whatever-else-kinda-educators (including CERTIFIED tennis instructors), the discount on any purchases til next tuesday. i had my doubts at first. i mean i give tennis lessons, but far from being a certified one. and they'd probably gonna ask for a certified-tennis-instructor id card thing-y which i don't have. then i would really be in an embarassing, awkward position, so to speak. but i claimed as such nonetheless and got my discount.. hehe. imagine that would be a cool bar pick-up line (methinks) :P

unsuspecting hottie: so.. what do you do?
uber-cool self (with a foreign accent): i'm a tennis instructor
unsuspecting hottie: oh, wow! that's hot!
unsuspecting hottie: i've always wanted a 'tennis lesson'.. maybe you can give me some at your place tonight.. flirt.. flirt..
(uber-cool self then rides off with unsuspecting hottie..)

i mean that could work.. couldn't it?

anyway.. the two cd's i got were coldplay's parachute (for the third time) and seu jorge's the life aquatic studio sessions (from the fantastically made movie the life aquatic with steve zissou).

i honestly don't know where i lost the two coldplay cd's. i chose not to dwell on what-could-have-beens and bought another one (heck.. i might lose this one too). and there's something about the brazilian sound that conjures my excitement (but i'm not telling heh). if you haven't already seen the life aquatic movie, then i suggest that you do. life's short you know! stay safe and have a great weekend lovelies.

all at once

look after you

times like these that make me miss people who are close to me. i can only endure times alone for so long. good thing i got this pc put together at home. keeping me occupied at least. things are getting to be really routine too now.. work, break fast, pc time, sleep, and start all over again. need to change things a little. else i'd go berserk! especially if i can't win one single game of chess off of the computer. be safe loves!

little house

i was at the fray concert a couple of weeks ago at the red rocks amphitheather. most bands here sound awesome playing live. it got a bit cold towards the end but the ambience more than made up for it. check them out - the fray.

it has gotten colder since last night. it was forecasted to be snowing tonight, but i haven't seen a single flake yet. honestly i can wait. the sight of the first snow fall of the year has always been a wonder, an inspiration almost. but it gets old pretty quick. especially when the bitter coldness sets in. a change of seasons are inevitable i know. i wish i'm sounding too negative.

today's monday was a stretch to say the least. survived it nonetheless. hope the week would turn out for the better. i'm tired of chasing.

shotgun blues

in my conscious state, i've always wondered how it's like to be consumed by something overwhelming and over-powering beyond comprehension.. hate, love, sadness, joy.. loneliness. i despise you, naruto. then again, you live in pages on manga. i wonder how is it in real life?

i alone

so much trust that has been asked of me. what more can i do to make you want to believe in me? to want to acknowledge me?

or is this just a way of you saying that i'm.. unwanted?

to love again is hard for me. to want to continue on, grasping the reality of this un-real, is even harder.

just want you to know this.

selling the drama

i don't really have anything important to discuss in this space. ramadhan so far has been great and blessed. it helps also that i work indoors with air-conditioning and all. the humidity, or lack there of, has been the one factor that is killing me though. it's dry here.. with thin air. but it's not as bad as the first couple of years that i moved here. been re-hydrating my body thoroughly during the night. and i can say that i'm living quite the spirit of the holy month more here than i've ever been back home.. in the sense that i seem to have more time for prayers and to reflect and consuming just good enough portion of food and drink. the main factor that i can offer you is that i'm not being tempted by the absurdly many pasar ramadhans that offer ridiculously lots of delicious food and drinks for break fast (or for gorging the living daylight of out you for the rest of the night). *sigh* i miss home.

lightning crashes

it smells like fall. it hadn't dawned on me of that fact even with leaves turning into glorious yellow and orange and red. and for the fact that it has gotten colder this past week or so. there's always a nostalgic feeling that comes with the changing of seasons. either it's the sight or sound or smell or the music that you can hear in the air. i get excited most of the time, but there are moments that would linger and plunge me into the depth of depression. and the toilet bowl is clogged. now that sucked big time!