see you

restless. this is the feeling that i'm having right now. been having this feeling for the past few weeks at least. why? i can't really decribe it. it may have been a combination of work stress, lack of sleep, and not eating right. or maybe i'm missing someone. and singgang.

i've written before about how much i needed to get organized. the apartment's a big mess. the fridge is smelling funny. the bathtub needs a major scrubbing. been going into work late. and so on so forth with a lot of other slacks. maybe these have been contributing to my being restless. kinda funny after re-reading what i've written earlier. somewhat ironic that i think i know what's wrong in my life and i think i know what i needed to do, but having little motivation to change these.

i got almost a week to straighten this mess here before heading out. now i'm really looking forward to not doing anything for a couple of days back home. i could find solace in obscurity. in the place where time seems to stand still. in the place where i first breathed the air on my own. should be great!

right now, i just want to sleep.