tonight, tonight

hola residents of the world! hope you're doing well. i'm not. i'm miserable and i've been feeling unwell for the last week or so with fever, cold, and major headache, among others. my hair's a mess, need a haircut. haven't shaved in the last 3-4 days. tired from various excursions. my eyes are irritated and red and it'sot because of the contact lenses. and it's been snowing since last night. it's april! for God's sake.. spring time. the business trip to temasek's been delayed by a few weeks (to mid-june). hmm what else? work's been piling up. now i'm overlooking three different programs.. that's three different sets of people to deal with hence three different 'headaches'. you know how tough it is dealing with management people who's never had any engineering experience making engineering decisions? very much. it's laughable sometimes but i try to keep my 'excitements' and 'amusements' to a controlled level because i know now that i'll be the one working out those stupid decisions isk2. but it's never been a better time to be working for the company right now. business has been awesome and the quarterly performances have surpassed the many analyses from wall street. so, if i don't get a big, fat bonus check come july, i'll be totally pissed off like you won't believe it. just kidding. i'm too tired to even think that right now. negative vibes are not good for your health hehe. i'm trying to see out the day albeit looking and feeling like a souped up zombie. okie, stay safe and do have a good weekend ya!

mellowship slinky in b major

so, i'm tired and kinda sleepy right now. and hungry. padan muka for staying up late last night and for nought. oh, did i tell you that my monday night indoor soccer team (beer guts) are also playing in thursday night's over-30 league?! yeah.. i've been going in there flashing my fake ID haha!! no-lah.. they're not very strict about it and nobody has checked my ID, yet. is not like it matters at all, with me panting like an old man after 30sec, i could easily pass for a 40+ dude!! pathetic, no. the physical training thus far prepares me for long cardio workouts and i've been recovering much faster, but i couldn't sustain short acceleration exercises like in indoor soccer. i probably wanna start altering my workout to include circuit training. and some news from my sunday night co-ed team (paranoid.android), 1) ian was selected to the colorado blizzard. the blizzards are colorado rapids' pdl (players developmental league) team, macam reserves. so, i think that's semi-pro. pro: it's a testament to how good my team is (cewah!). con: we've lost one of our better players (sigh). best of luck, buddy! 2) crisis brewing in the ladies' rank. susie left in a world of rage after our last game because she didn't get enough playing time. well that's what she claimed. you see, we got four ladies to fill in two spots on the field (six players at one time on the field with a goalie (doesn't matter a guy or a girl), a minimum of two ladies, and a maximum of three guys, and ). we had 7 guys to fill in three spots, that's 3 subs waiting on the sideline and nobody's complaining about not getting enough playing time. i've got a management task at hand and hopefully get it resolved ASAP. my resolve is strong. so, nothing's gonna stop me from winning that cheapo championship t-shirt this time!

apparently someone took note of my brief, negligible star trek write up in the previous entry (thx, nin13!). personally, you don't need to be a sci-fi buff to appreciate it. and you don't have to be a fan either. i've never paid much attention to the hype, especially with the original start trek series or movies, not really interested. i got to kinda get acquinted with captain jean-luc picard's starfleet generation when i attended college here. and picard's crew are the basis of my interest towards the star trek genre. here's my two cents.. star trek: the next generation (tng) deals with the exploration of the deep space, encounters with strange aliens (i.e. borgs), technological innovations such as warp-speed travel, space-time continuum explorations, and intergalactic conflicts with the romulans (close cousins to the vulcans, two highly-advanced alien races) and the klingons (allies) defending the space borders of the federation of planets. picard's crew: number-one (first officer) commander riker, lt. cmd. data (android), lt. cmd. la forge (chief engineer), lt. cmd. worf (klingon; security), dr. crusher (chief medical officer), and lt. cmd. deanna troi (counselor; betazoid). then we have a spin-off like star trek: deep space nine that plots the dealings of starfleet with the bajorans and the dominions on a space station in the alpha quadrant (the Federation has divided the space to quadrants). from the ecentricities of quark the ferrengi to the horrors of war in the dominion war. capt. sisko, the commander of ds9, and the enigma that is the defiant, and the emissary to the bajorans. ahh.. letih pakcik!! two more spin-offs - star trek: voyager where the starship voyager got flung far away to the delta quadrant after chasing down the rebel maquis. delta quadrant is about 70000 light-years away from the alpha quadrant! the lady commander, commander janeway, attempts to steer the ship back and going through a series of adventure beyond imagination. the ending is definitely a cracker! star trek: enterprise is the precursor to the genre. ironically it was panned out the last. kinda cool to see how the creative team comes up with scenarios where humans are technologically advanced enough to make space warp-speed travel and establish contacts with alien races. funny thing is the interior of the starship enterprise looks obsolete and it's suppose to look way beyond what we have now in the real world. this series nevertheless still holds a certain romance towards the star trek tradition. all in all, most of the situational scenes depict what the real-life scenarios look like. how people could have thought about the settings and costumes and alien figures are arts in itself. there are really smart, creative people out there with weird but plausible ideas that'll make you sit and wonder, like me. then again i'm easily amused too (not as much as some people, ok, one person, that i know).

okeh i'll stop now while my sanity's still intact. before i quit for real, here's a shout out to my roomie for being made captain of the taekwondo demo team! congratulations buddy! this guy's resolve is much stronger than mine. when he sets out to do something, he'll put his whole heart into achieving it. too serious if you ask me, but he's got results to show. i thought about calling him kapitan, but i'm a captain too, so i had to scrap that idea and sticking with calling him 'dude'.. hope he doesn't raise the rent now! alrighty people.. i'm off to enjoy the weekend. loads of plans and 3 new GTO manga best, best. do have a great one ok and stay safe! ciao!

blood sugar sex magik

nope. i haven't developed a hatred towards the world or anyone in particular. you have to believe me when i say i'm absolutely swamped with work. yeah. being sick does not help either. took tuesday off. watched a couple of not-yet-seen star trek: the next generation episodes in between falling in and out of sleep. i'm telling you.. those borgs are nasty. i rank them the third nastiest sci-fi villains after the predator (numero uno) and vegeta (saiyan prince from dragon ball). on any other circumstances, that would be blissful. but not those few days. went back to work wednesday and surprise, surprise work piled up. amazing sometimes when you're up and ready to go, nothing of great relevance comes about. it's always when you're down and almost out, i.e. late friday, when something comes up. the management's been delaying my trip to temasek (singapore). as of today, i'm officially flying over the first week of june. don't hold your breathe. i might be asked to go in mid-may if the need arises. payah jugak jadi star performer nih hehe..! well, it's always a pleasure going on these business trips.. flying business class all the way from denver to singapore, 5-star accommodation, and get to see friends and family. oh, the food is definitely heavenly. miss mia terribly. i'm kinda excited about saturday night. going to a 'stag'.. that's a bachelor's party for one of my irish buddies here. we're going to colorado springs. and from my understanding it involves alot of booze and strip clubs. the lads will be out for golf during the day. i think i can get myself excused from that and meet up with the rest of the party for dinner. it'll be interesting to experience all these while being sober. hope to survive the experience and live to tell the tale. okeh-kokeh people.. take it easy and do have a beautiful weekend ahead. ciao!

the everlasting gaze

spring blizzard.. only in colorado! the temperature was in the 60s on saturday, dropped a little during the night, then woke up sunday morning to 8 inches of snow and more. today's warm again. it's the weather system running its course. it's good to this part of the country since it's historically very dry come summer time. this ought to add some moisture to the ecological system here. so, had a pretty dull sunday. i had three soccer matches scheduled that day. i can understand why the outdoor match got cancelled (duh!), but the two indoor matches too. it's probably the sensible thing to do.. preventing people from taking unnecessary risks driving in bad road conditions. well it got fairly warm around late afternoon and snow on the road has pretty much melted, making for a slushy road condition. i went out for a drive to coastco in superior. you gotta love this kind of road conditions when you're driving a wrx!! and i think i'm addicted to turbo hehe.. . i'm in an emotionally stable condition today. could use some excitement but don't have any problem settling for nothing either. well do have a great day today! take it easy and stay safe:)

let down

God! depression is a nasty, nasty thing. i'm sure everyone of us has been through it at least once in our lifetime and, to some extent, to a different degree altogether. from my personal account, even the slighest 'things' can drive me mad and plunge me deep in depression-land. the other day, i went out and hit some tennis balls with a colleague from work. i haven't hit a tennis ball for awhile but it did feel good during warm up.. didn't feel any rustiness and such. then we started playing and half-way through the set, i missed a sitter, and another.. and another.. started spraying my serves and, honestly at that point, i felt like having a nervous breakdown!! is that how a nervous breakdown felt?! can't really explain what i was feeling then but just thought about quitting there and then. and it was supposed to be a friendly, fun thing to do. nothing was at stake and i knew going into it that i haven't been playing in a loooong time, so was kinda expecting a poor display.. . i dunno. driving back home afterwards, i thought and thought about what had happened and how could i be feeling so down. thinking about that little blimp in my week, it's mindboggling that something insignificant could dictate the mood. can't expect too much when it comes to these things. get over it!

according to the weather forecast, colorado's gonna be hit by a major snow storm as early as tonight. cool. the place can be awfully dry and the snow would bring much needed moisture. when i first moved to colorado about four years ago, i couldn't get sweaty like i normally do when i'm at home. i took about a year to fully acclimitized to the weather and altitude here. they weren't kidding when they say denver's a mile high! but when we have days like the last few days, this is perhaps one of the most beautiful places that i've been too. having said that, i don't know how much longer i want to stay here. new york city's always been an intriguing place to me. surprisingly i've never been there. there's so much romance associated with the city. i want to at least experience its eccentricites and pleasures in my lifetime. that would be awesome!

the weekend's been an absolutely welcoming fixture for me. i got to sleep in this morning. but united lost to norwich and pretty much plunging me into the depth of depression again. i have a party to go to in a bit. then i think i'll go see 'sin city'. kinda hoping that we'll get no snow tonight because i have a 9am soccer match tomorrow. soccer normally distracts me enough from the lingering depressive thoughts, which is a good thing. manga's another thing.. except that none of the titles i collect have new series out! freaking weird..! amazing how 20 different manga titles have no new edition out.. at the same time! i smell a conspiracy here to keep me from feeling good. not to fear, my resolves are strong. drive safely ya! ciao!

fitter happier

wow! the wonder of technology. i'm writing this entry from the comfort of the suede sofa at home, watching, or trying to watch, malcolm in the middle. my roomie a.k.a. landlord, installed a broadband wireless system at home and it's been working like a charm. and oh, i got out of work early today. recovered from the terrible, throbbing headache in the morning. doh! the simpson's on, yeay! they're icons of my generation. smart-assed, quirky jokes.. ahh, still is refreshing till this day, re-runs after re-runs. i love girls in skirt. just thought i'd let this out. don't wanna get caught staring at you ladies later. i am not a pervert.. you have to believe me on this. anyways, my roomie's someone who is easily amused. i can tell him a third-rate, lame joke and he'd still laugh his heart out. amazing. he used to start laughing hysterically without any reason that i know off because he just got the joke from 2-3 days back. he's improved a little now haha!!. proud of him. how much do you value friendship? it takes a lot of understanding and some amount of committment. it's all about watching each other's back. i don't have too many close friends. but those few i have are my best friends. people that i'd lay my life on the line for. thanks:) stay safe everybody..!!

subterranean homesick alien

i tend to forget how great an album ok computer really is until i put the cd on. and i'm not gonna start an album review of it here because i know i suck at it with my short attention span and all. did i tell you i have a short attention span? oh yeah, i did. there. if you hadn't heard the album yet, i'd strongly suggest that you do. it'll complete your miserable life.. at least my miserable life's been a lot better after listening to it. wow! that was a bold statement. bite me. kicking squelling gucci little piggy - paranoid android. on a very bright note.. all three of my soccer teams that i'm on won yesterday.. yeay!! is that cool or what?! super! well i don't exactly know the result of the outdoor game yet but we should've won.. i left just before half-time and we were 3-0 up. then rushed to westminster and crushed the other team 9-3. later on, on another indoor team, we won 10-2. so all in all, been a good day to me personally. tonight's another indoor match in boulder, hoping to get another favorably result. it's been a fairly busy day at work today. not as hectic as the last few days last week. i'm looking for a property, or two, in kl for investment. it's high time i delve into it. i think my financial management's a big mess. i have to work on this a little bit more seriously. my head was throbbing this morning. thought about calling-in sick (urm, ditching work) today but being the consummate professional that i am, i just couldn't bring myself to do it (cewah). feeling better now though. hungry now.. lunch time!

stand inside your love

hola! how are you? hope you're in good health and better spirits. on average this week, i've been pretty good, thank you:) work is piling up but manageable. no conflict of interest or anything fun like that happening. went and visited the leeds school of business at CU. the last day for the fall 2005 intake for the mba program is.. today! hampeh.. was so raring to go already! damn it. the evening mba program, which caters for working professionals like moi ('student' is not a profession k.. hehe), is still open. but it's gonna be applying a flat rate of fees. this means that i cannot apply as an in-state applicant (which means a bit more cheaper ler). so, i'm gonna think long and hard about it. then swung by the college of engineering to enquire about graduate studies in electrical engineering (masters of science) or engineering management (masters of engineering). but the graduate advisor was already out of office and won't be back till monday (note to self: come in earlier). you may ask, why this sudden interest in further education? well, lotsa reasons. education is a big part of my family. both of my parents are educators (my mom has since retired) and the emphasis on it has been lost on their children. from a very young age, the importance of education has been ingrained into our little heads and that the well-being of our respective prospective lives depend on how well we're 'educated'. i could say that us siblings haven't done too shabby in our achievements. we may not have straight A's start performers, but enough. a good friend and colleague has been persistent in taking classes from CU, my roomie has just got accepted into the graduate program at CU, and another colleague has decided to take some classes as well. that leaves me. to me there's the personal challenge. i believe in our society, academic achievements are very much a gauge of how smart someone is and how far he/she can go in life. while this may be far from the truth, most high achievers that i've had the privilege to meet are exactly that. people with plans and driven. it makes sense to me. this would present a tremendous challenge to my inner self. my roomie's been commenting on how much he feels 'brain-dead' from the lack of stimulating assignments he's been getting. don't get me wrong, my job's pretty damn stimulating, but i've been slacking off for too long, too much! plus, all i need to do is score a C grade or better and the company's gonna reimburse me 100%.. is that a good deal or what!! WTF! if i can't take advantage of this opportunity, then un-officially, i'm the biggest loser ever! that sucks. the plan now is part-time mba and part-time engineering, possibly in control systems. one class each for every semester. gotta start somewhere. been putting this off for nearly four years now since i moved back to the states. time to act! wish me luck people! do have a great weekend ok!

*Note: after 6 gruelling weeks of physical exertions, way beyond comprehension (ok, i'm exaggerating a little bit), the 6-pecs that i've been craving for is still nowhere in sight *sigh* hence i'm gonna extend that for another four weeks. my resolve is still strong. thank you.