black star

i've been slacking off in updating this blog. so much to say, so much to do, so little time.. in times like these, it's increasingly important to reflect on those people dearest to you and on those things that you enjoy the most. basically, live your life to the fullest! there's been so many deaths close to me in the past coupla weeks.. sad but it's the will of God. al-fatihah.

rela ku pujuk

a two-scooped, S$6.50 haagen dasz ice-cream should qualify as a dinner plate. maybe not in nutritional terms, but at least as an idea. my favorite flavor is strawberry cheesecake. and i don't think i've frequented the place enough to qualify me as a preferred customer. heck i got at least three more weeks to go here so might as well utilise the time i have. when can you say you've bought the best-est pair of shoes ever? when you've gotten yourself a pair of adidas barricade III tennis shoes. they make my hideously looking feet look darn good. of course i can say this with every other thing that comes to mind and you'd read through this anyways. right now i'm in a void state of mind. it's the feeling that you have when you feel that you're all alone in this whole wide world and un-cared and un-loved. truly disheartening and upsetting. hope i'll get through this one soon.. really hate it being in a funk. i think i'll go for a run tonight.. hopefully that pretty, nice lady would be there as well. signing off.

all in the suit that you wear

back by popular demand (as if). i'm writing from rainy singapore right now. been an eventful week so far here. the flight over was , urm, effortless. ok.. not bad at all considering the fact that i had a relatively major headache enroute, because i slept for a couple of hours before, packing for the trip. the transit in narita was kinda fun. had some japanese shrimp fried rice for about 500 yen (at least i think it was fried rice, even though i'm pretty positive that they used the microwave.. use your imagination), and a 300 yen iced coffee. the coolest thing.. they had a liquidified sugar ready in cute little containers, like those milk containers they used to serve coffee in restaurants...?! comprende? ok. let me know if you need further explanation about this. and, yes, the girl mending the counter is cute. you know, japanese-cute. but of course i was hungry too. and i bought a pair of socks that people here wear with those wooden slipper (selipar jepun hehe!!), the kind that split the big toe compartments with the rest of the other insignificant toes. and, of course i bought a pair of those selipar jepun too. for mia. hope she likes 'em:) it's kind tough trying to explain things that you're not familiar with. you know what suck more? i had a digital camera with me but didn't use it. hopeless. and i've been eating non-stop, except when i'm asleep or during meetings. i'm gonna try go out for a run tonight. i know i may not lose much, or anything for that matter, but i know i'll feel good all over again and justify the mee soto that i'm gonna have for dinner tonight. ok, signing off for now. do take care ya!

(nice dreams)

i can't sleep at nights. i'm thinking it's the combination of exhaustion and anxiety. then again i rarely think. i need to chill a little bit. maybe i'd go out and hit some serves today. all of a sudden i got all these errands to run before i fly out this friday. kinda had a vision about what i need to get done a coupla weeks ago, but it's gonna be a home stretch as always. ah well, i tried. being tired and out-of-sort, sort of, don't help too. i know i'd leave something behind when i get to singapore, but gonna try not to be upset about it. in an effort to make some kind of 'life statement', i recently purchased some yellow wristband and a pair of cycling socks from the lance armstrong foundation (you know the yellow, livestrong wristband, don't you?). yeah, say what you want but i think that the 'livestrong' statement is a powerful one. simple and direct. to my conscience at least. i would like to focus the statement to life in general. too often have i slumped to depression and self-pity that i forgot to live and learn and move on. think about it. having said that, i hope lance armstrong win his seventh tour de france. not only that would be a nice retirement present for lance, but also a crowning achievement in an extraordinary endurance race that symbolizes the human spirit. stay safe everybody!

who dat? isi minyak in boulder, colorado

flagstaff mountain, boulder, colorado

cropduster

i'm in the least presentable shape right now. i know i'm fit, but not in the best possible, urm, look. i've never been concerned about how i look - the hairdo, the shirts i wear, how i smell, how i walk, how my gut literally bulges (ok, not for the faint-hearted), or whether i have a big, toned biceps or not, as long as i feel good about myself. and i still do hold dear to that outlook of life. but i guess people have moments when they feel it's time to re-invent themselves. be it in their physical attributes or in their mental state. and hopefully for the better good of mankind. change for the better.

spongebob rules!

green disease

now my right calf's hurting after getting kicked during last night's game. but still ok. kinda hobbling around for a little bit. went horseback riding last sunday in estes park. it was fun and relaxing. hmm maybe i could get myself a horse. i know that'll someone very happy:) i don't understand why the horse that i rode keeps passing gas (?!) the trail that we took was beautiful. i'm not big into hiking, but i surely felt compelled by it. the scenery here in colorado can take your breath away at times, especially when you look up to the majestic view of the rockies. not much to see on the eastern plains though as they're flat. maybe not as flat as kansas or nebraska, but flat enough as far as you can see. the vastness could overwhelm you sometimes. one interesting fact about colorado is that the state has, perhaps, the most registered boats in the country. surprising considering the fact that it's landlocked! well, i don't plan on buying a boat anytime soon, if that's what you're thinking hehe..


so, my trip to singapore's pretty much set. very much looking forward to it.. the food, the scenery, the weather. gonna be attending a school reunion at the end of july - SRP class of 91 at sekolah menengah khir johari in tanjong malim, perak. it's quite an achievement really to still be able to keep in touch with friends from junior high, especially after 14 years being away from it all. while most of the class stayed on for senior high, quite a number of us went our separate ways after form3, me included. the best part of the experience is definitely the camaraderie that most of us had. it's an enriching and a humbling experience at the same time in getting to know people from various backgrounds. from the friendly ones to the gangster-type (samseng kampung), from the well-to-do families to the poor ones, it made for a very, very conducive learning grounds for me. and i'm grateful that i've been given the opportunity to part of their experience as well.

do have a great weekend ya!